once you realize a mistake is a mistake do you stay in that mistake and dwell in it?
it's very easy to say....
No, of course not...
but when it happened to me. i first have to stop living in denial, face the fact and wake up.
i thank God that He guided me through all these. Without Him I'll be still trying with my own effort to work things through and lie to myself that everything is gonna be ok.
remember my whole shell thing?
*click*He works in ways i so extremely cannot see...
I planned to open up in sem 2 but He convicted me so strongly that i needed help a.s.a.p...
Every time i wanted to tell someone there's this huge pile of shame and embarrassment like a some sort of spirit hovering every part of my body.
i think that thing is called guilt.
Guilt towards God which makes me not wanna serve, not wanna pray, not wanna sing and worship. i felt like a hypocrite.. saying and standing up for something when i myself fell over and over again into the same sin.
i'm aware that there are many consequences to face in the future.
but you know what.
Let tomorrow worry about itself. (Matthew 6:34)for now, i thank God for His grace. His mercy. His love.
although now i still feel guilty and am still regretting every mistakes i made and even sometimes memories of
it just run through my mind...
i'm just so fulfilled that God said in His word that Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1) and I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more (Isaiah 43:25).Psalm 32:2
Blessed is the man whose sin the LORD does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.
Thank You Lord. I don't know what else to say to You but thank You... so so much...
